Current Location: Friend Zone

Have you ever had feelings for someone, but you feel like they have "friend zoned" you?

Yeah that's how I feel.

Hi, I'm Jess, forever in the friend zone.....

JOY

I mean, I guess that it could be worse, this individual could hate me.

Why would anyone hate, me is beyond my wildest dreams, but hey, it could happen.

What constitutes someone to be "friend zoned"?

Then again, what is the "friend zone"?

According to what I've noticed guys and girls have two different standards of such zone.

My very good friend told me the guy's version, which I naturally forgot since is wasn't the version I wanted it to be.
But for girls, the "friend zone" is where the girl doesn't see you in any way other than a friend.
There is no way that anything more than pure friendship will happen between the two of you.
Forget sex. Forget kissing. Forget dates.... unless shes going to the mall and wants your oppinon on clothes.
That my dears, is the female version of the friend zone..... or at least MY version of the friend zone.

But nothing makes me feel more vulnerable rather than the conflict I am facing right now.

See theres this guy, and I can't help but feel that I have squashed all chances of being more than friends with him.

Thus, me being in the "friend zone".

I have always felt that he would never give me the time of day.

After all, why would any guy want to give me the time of day when he has gorgeous women surrounding him.
I would never be able to compete with their beauty, never mind their possible intellect.

It's just not my style.

So, I've laid low, and hoped that this guy would eventually look my way.

And he hasn't.

Well, they say it's true, alcohol always lowers your innovations.
So, naturally one night to which I was hoping to once again catch his attention, I had allowed alcohol to persuade my moral compass to not point due North.
I then allowed my attention to be deviated to a guy who seemed to want my attention.

To this day I still cannot look myself in the eye for deviating from my compass.
I'm not saying that I had sexual encounters with that individual.
For goodness sakes I am not that kind of a woman. I respect myself far too much.

But my point is, I now know that I have ruined any chance of possibly gaining this guys attention from my lack of a moral compass encounter.

What I hope for, is the chance to redeem myself, and to prove that I am someone worthy to be given a chance.
Because for once in my life, I feel that this guy is of a worthy character to spend my time with.

He has morals, beliefs, and he values himself.
This guy actually knows his self worth and wont settle for anything less.

I am enamored by his classic charm. 

They don't make class like him any more. 

My guess is that nothing will become of this, and in fact, he will never know how often he crosses my mind on a daily basis.

But thats okay right?
Because, sometimes, just sometimes dreams are better than reality...

And sometimes, its good to know you have a friend you care so much about....

Sometimes

♥Jess♥