I'm not quite sure if I can last all this long.
It's REALLY bad.
You don't realize how much of a part of this social media network site is a part of your life if you try to give it up when you're "addicted" to it.
At least once an hour I'm looking at my phone and getting mad at it that I can't go on Facebook.
THIS IS RIDICULOUS!!!
I do not think I would be able to last till Easter. I may not even last the week!
For real! It's not even a week and I'm beside myself!!!
I miss the social aspect of it. The fact that I am able to see what my friends and family are up to makes me feel like I'm up-to-date on my "current events".
Pathetic I know.
At this point I feel like with everything going on, yes, I am happy that I have taken a few days of a break away from the "drama" that I was experiencing. I do feel like I have a better grip of creating an "anti-asshole" environment for myself.
My life is too short, too precious to have it spent dealing with petty nonsense that will only add struggle and not enhance it with positive experiences.
My bullshit meter has reached its limit, and I think I'm now to the point where I'm ready to use the backbone that I have worked so hard to obtain. I'm not going to be a push-over anymore. I will stand up for myself. But standing up for myself doesn't mean that I will be aggressive or on edge. It just means that I won't be afraid to stand up for myself. It also means that I won't be partaking in the nonsense that won't be beneficial to my life.
If it does not add anything positive, then I will not be giving it thought.
Like my dad says, people or ideas that take up space in my mind should either pay rent or be evicted. And right now, I'm not collecting any rent so eviction notices are being sent.
I feel peace right now with myself. This weekend was much needed to relax and enjoy myself. As much as I don't want the weekend to end, I actually am okay with it ending at the same time.
This is the last weekend of me having "freedom". Next weekend I make the trip down to Florida to bring PAC home.
I cannot wait to see my heart!! The past week has been so quiet without him. But I'm glad that he is able to have this time to be with his father.
As much as I miss him, I am glad that he is able to build this relationship with him.
I love my son, and I always want the best for him.
But in order to give him the best, I have to give myself the best. As wrong as it sounds, it doesn't mean that I won't be putting him first. I am, and always will. But, I need to take care of myself in order to be able to take care of him.
And that means improving my life by getting rid of drama, and focusing on the good. Granted, I've eaten like a pig this weekend, but I have been working hard on watching what I eat again and working out. I need to take care of myself so I can be overall healthy to care for PAC.
So, heres to saying "Goodbye" to all the negative aspects that will not add any substance to my life, and "Hello" to positivity and wellbeing.
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