GASP!!!!
**Screams!! Visions of small villages being destroyed as if Godzilla was attacking them.**
Yup that's what I feel like.
Facebook has become something so ingrained in me that I feel completely helpless without it.
Like a lost puppy dog.
Like peanut butter without its jelly.
Like macaroni without the cheese.
I feel like Stitch (from Disney's "Lilo and Stitch" movie), where hes in the woods with the "Ugly Duckling" book, looking around saying that he's "lost".
My creative outlet, my personal outlet, my emotional outlet has disappeared! It's like a really bad version of a breakup. I feel like Facebook broke-up with me and I cannot talk to "it" anymore. Only I was the one who broke up with "it".
You've heard of the Kubler-Ross model for the 5 Stages of Grief:
- Denial
- Anger
- Bargaining
- Depression
- Acceptance
When my friend told me that I should give up my Facebook for lent I was in the "anger" stage.
What do you mean I should give it up?
I can't!!
No! I love Facebook!
And with that I realized I have an addiction.
An addiction to Facebook.
Acceptance.... maybe?
Right now I'm in a mix of the denial and depression stage.
I keep saying, "I don't need Facebook. I can live without it. I don't have an addiction to it."
Then a moment later I'm stairing at my phone, helplessly and confused. Because for 1) all my apps have been re-arranged on my phone. And you'd be surprised how much that bothers me. It bothers me a whole freaking lot. 2) I can't check on my friends' posts, make posts, see who's commented on my posts. 3) Every time I want to write a witty status, guess what, I can't.
And I'm left feeling empty. Like everyone got invited to the party, and not only was I not invited to this uber cool party, and it gets worse... now I'm grounded.
--WAH--
I'm pretty sure that with time I won't feel such an empty void like I do right now.
Mainly because I have so much time on my hands.
You know what they say, idle hands are the devils hands....
In my case it's my mind.
It's been running wild with thoughts and emotions, from everything that has been going on in my life lately.
I feel like I have been let down on multiple home-fronts. People that I thought were there for me and cared about me have hurt me and left me confused.
It makes me wonder, am I really a bad person?
I don't think that I am. After all, I have a family who loves me. I have a bunch of friends telling me that I'm a good person. So what makes me attracted to people that in the end hurt me?
There have actually been studies that show that when you tend to have one failed relationship after another there is normally a common link with all of those people.
So, here I am, sitting and wondering.... what in the world do all these people have in common, or is it really me??
I feel like its that commercial we all saw growing up.... if you didn't I'm about to add this to the list of "dude you know she's too young for you when..." jokes.
But that commercial where the boy has a Tootsie Pop, and goes to Mr. Owl (theres a robot, and a snake too that I know of) and asks how many licks to the center of the Tootsie Pop. After 3 licks he gives up and chomps on it, leaving you with this "the world may never know".
Now, I'm half inclined to go and figure out myself how many damn licks it takes to the center of the Tootsie Pop, after all, I don't have Facebook to occupy my time.
Or, I can try and figure out why all these "relationships" have failed.
Acceptance.... maybe?
Right now I'm in a mix of the denial and depression stage.
I keep saying, "I don't need Facebook. I can live without it. I don't have an addiction to it."
Then a moment later I'm stairing at my phone, helplessly and confused. Because for 1) all my apps have been re-arranged on my phone. And you'd be surprised how much that bothers me. It bothers me a whole freaking lot. 2) I can't check on my friends' posts, make posts, see who's commented on my posts. 3) Every time I want to write a witty status, guess what, I can't.
And I'm left feeling empty. Like everyone got invited to the party, and not only was I not invited to this uber cool party, and it gets worse... now I'm grounded.
--WAH--
I'm pretty sure that with time I won't feel such an empty void like I do right now.
Mainly because I have so much time on my hands.
You know what they say, idle hands are the devils hands....
In my case it's my mind.
It's been running wild with thoughts and emotions, from everything that has been going on in my life lately.
I feel like I have been let down on multiple home-fronts. People that I thought were there for me and cared about me have hurt me and left me confused.
It makes me wonder, am I really a bad person?
I don't think that I am. After all, I have a family who loves me. I have a bunch of friends telling me that I'm a good person. So what makes me attracted to people that in the end hurt me?
There have actually been studies that show that when you tend to have one failed relationship after another there is normally a common link with all of those people.
So, here I am, sitting and wondering.... what in the world do all these people have in common, or is it really me??
I feel like its that commercial we all saw growing up.... if you didn't I'm about to add this to the list of "dude you know she's too young for you when..." jokes.
But that commercial where the boy has a Tootsie Pop, and goes to Mr. Owl (theres a robot, and a snake too that I know of) and asks how many licks to the center of the Tootsie Pop. After 3 licks he gives up and chomps on it, leaving you with this "the world may never know".
Now, I'm half inclined to go and figure out myself how many damn licks it takes to the center of the Tootsie Pop, after all, I don't have Facebook to occupy my time.
Or, I can try and figure out why all these "relationships" have failed.
the first step is admitting you have an addiction. you're doing great jess! that friend of yous must be a really stand up person who definitely knows what they're talking about when it comes to mental & emotional cleansing!
ReplyDeleteas far as witty status' go...you can always write a bunch of them on here, in an entry and i'm sure people (like me) will appreciate them!
keep up the good fight!! =)
LOL thanks Jimmy! I'm working on it ;-)
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